Should I Leave My Husband?

It is not like my husband is abusing me emotionally or physically, it is just that I am no longer in love with him anymore.  Over the past 2-3 years, we have grown so far apart that our marriage seems more like 2 friends living together.  Sometimes I feel like it is not fair to him or myself if we keep up this charade.  We can both feel that everything is not fine with our marriage.  But there are also times when I believe that we can fight to keep this marriage alive.

I have been having an affair

Just in case you think that it is terrible of me to cheat on my husband, I will need to tell you my side of the story.   I have caught my husband masturbating in front of the computer watching porn movies several times.  It is not like I am depriving him of sex, because I have tried many times to seduce him, but he never seems to be interested.  I actually try to act like a whore so that he might be interested, but I still do not get any reaction out of him.  I have worn the sluttiest lingerie with knee high boots, even pleasure myself in front of him just to get some reaction out of him.  He doesn’t get an erection for me anymore.  And in order to get him excited, on the rarest of rare occasion, I have to spend 5-6 minutes giving him a blowjob.  He is only 35 and impotency definitely hasn’t come into play yet.  So I don’t really don’t know what the issue, other than he is not into me anymore.

Since then, I just quit trying.  I ended up looking for comfort and affection somewhere else.  I found it with a man I met in the gym.  He is kind, affectionate and best of all, totally into me.  He texts me constantly and calls me when I am alone.  He would send me flowers at work and calls me for no reason to tell me that he loves me.  And he is gentle and great in bed.  He was always able to give me multiple orgasms when we made love.

I do wish that my husband is more in love with me, like he used to be the first years of our marriage.  I just feel torn whether I should leave him and pursue an open relationship with this other man.  Deep in my heart I do believe that my husband still loves me, and he would want us to have the loving relationship we once shared.

Tags: cheat on my husband, having an affair, make love, Orgasm

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